Conflict and Confusion
So much to write about and so little time. Hitting the road to Canada today and still lots to do before I go.
I’m recovering well. Had my first post-operative visit on Friday and my doctor said that I was literally the poster child for the best recovery ever. He then told me not to tell lots of women about how well I felt after my hysterectomy because it wasn’t normal to feel this great this fast, ha ha. I think that being in good physical shape before the surgery definitely made the difference. Also one of the reasons I feel so good is because I don’t have pain any longer. I didn’t realize how much pain I was in on a daily basis until it was gone. The relief is amazing.
Yesterday was a tough day though. Hubby and I were scheduled to work the wine garden for three hours at the fair. All it involves is standing and pouring wine. It’s fun because a lot of the folks have no idea what they even like so it’s a good opportunity to show off what little knowledge you have. Plus I really love wine and it’s fun sharing that love with others. About two hours into my shift the pain started. It was some intense cramping and eventually subsided after taking a painkiller. However it did force us to return home immediately after our shift was over. Well kinda….we got on the freeway and I soon discovered I left my glasses there so we had to turn around and go back to get them. But eventually we made it home.
This past week has been challenging for me. I started out evaluating a friendship I had and wondering where it will go because of some issues that have been going on. I just can’t tolerate toxic people and/or situations in my life and if I can control that, I will. Lots of conflict in my heart and I’m hoping the time away gives me some perspective.
While I’m away I also want to do some serious thinking about work vs. school and what I intend to do with the rest of my life. Yes, I’ve registered for school but I miss working. I miss making money. And….yes, this is horrible to say, I miss disposable income. I miss knowing if I want/need something I can buy it. I’m human, shoot me. Maybe I don’t have what it takes to make the sacrifices required to finish school.
Confusion is everywhere.
That’s where I am today. Lots of things for me to think about while I’m on the road.
1st stop – Lincoln, California